Hey friends! It’s been a minute. My last update on “Rebuilding Rome” was after my “Week 8 Progress Report” in late February and then I kind of went M.I.A. on everyone. Sorry about that; life got in the way. However, I’ve kept working on myself and this post will kind of update you on all of my progress and will tie a bow on any loose ends.
So, my last update was on February 26, 2018. And now, it’s August 2, 2018. It’s been just over five months. A lot has changed. So, basically, I stopped updating the blog because in February I figured out I needed another surgery for a hernia I had developed and I was kind of disappointed. Another speed bump. Though I was only really out of commission for a week, it still discouraged me. But, really…taking time away from this blog was probably a good decision for a little bit.
I made a lot of positive changes in my life since February. I got really motivated to make changes in my career and I started reaching out to connections I had and not all of them were positive. One gentleman even told me that I was “largely unfocused” and that I had wasted 15 minutes of his life. I decided after that call to talk with a career advisor and tell him what I wanted to accomplish and I was having trouble figuring out the “how.” How do I get there? Luckily, I have taken four different career-personality tests including the MBTI and the Strong Interest Inventory. Basically, I can’t be behind the desk. I thrive in team environments and I want work in an upbeat environment and helping people. Working with a team to reach a common goal…that’s my jam. As I’ve mentioned previously, I was a huge high school athlete and so I really think coaching could be in my future. So, I reached out to my brother’s high school football coach and now I’m going to coach JV Football this upcoming fall at his high school. Additionally, I’ve shadowed a personal trainer and I plan on shadowing a general manager of a fitness center and an athletic director of a high school. Frankly, I think it would be awesome to work in an athletic department either in a high school or a college and coach 1-2 sports. Helping mold young men through sports just feels like it could be that perfect fit and I could really gain that value and meaning I’ve been searching for.
Physically, I feel pretty great. I’m eating intuitively now and not experiencing major cravings for sweets like I was in January through March. I’ve also been having amazing workouts and it is showing IN THE MIRROR. I went on a college visit trip with my brother and father in early April. During that time, I started to really accept who I am as a person. I remember coming home and I looked myself in the mirror both physically and mentally and I said, “This is who you are. And, I’m okay with that.” It took a long time for that self-acceptance. I had just always been focused on not being good enough or always improving, but I was finally at peace with myself both mentally and physically. The only physical flaw that still needs to be dealt with is my nagging and chronic neck pain that I am still working on getting a solution to. So, eventually I’ll update you all on that.
But, it’s funny how things all come together when you are finally content and proud and comfortable with yourself. When you’re self-accepting and sure of yourself, it seems other people start to take notice…and want to be a part of it. My personal life has seen an uptick as I have met some pretty amazing people and I’m doing more of what I enjoy doing. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that all of this has happened when I was doing things that I enjoy doing and at a time where I was very accepting of myself. I think the saying; “your vibe attracts your tribe” is very accurate.
Obviously, since February, other things have changed. I’ve got a new look, I’m buying a new car, I’ve started to read books for pleasure and to further better myself, and I’ll be taking the GRE soon. Everything is positive and I have “Rebuilding Rome” to thank for kick-starting me in the right direction.
However, things aren’t perfect. I’m pretty frustrated that there is still no diagnosis for my neck injury. I still enjoy my job, but I do really desire to have a greater sense of purpose within my community. And, though I am happy where I am at in my personal life, I do need to do a better job with honestly communicating my feelings and what I want. The message here is that nothing is ever perfect. In a way, you are always “Rebuilding Rome” and once you hit whatever goal you set, it doesn’t mean to stop. Set new goals. Don’t get complacent. We will never run out of problems. Rather, new (and often less awful) problems will arise that we need to solve. I’ll be stopping by on here occasionally to update on both fitness thoughts and some inspiring mental health thoughts…as well as some of my own happenings. I eventually want this blog to evolve into something a bit more vulnerable and personal because that’s really what I want to get into in my future career and that’s when I feel like I tell the stories that people love and relate to most (see, “Finding Your Motivation.”) Anyway, that’s all for now. Keep on rebuilding. ‘Till next time…